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Absence.

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 21, 2009, 11:50 PM
"At the bottom, no one in life can help anyone else in life; this one experiences over and over in every conflict and every perplexity: that one is alone." - Rainer Maria Rilke.

I assure you, everything is falling apart.

So go ahead, scream into the void.

Do you know how bad it is when you have no idea why you're sad, though you have a pretty good idea that it's this fucking place. It's everything. That you feel so fucking alone on this godforsaken earth you have no idea what to do with yourself. and your own thoughts begin to scare you. and you feel like no one really cares anymore.. even though they say they do, if you try to tell them what's wrong, they have no idea how to handle you. They have no idea what to say. So they just give you a hug and tell you it'll be alright. It'll get better. Everything's going to be fucking OKAY. and you want to yell at them that no, its not. that right now you feel as if nothing is okay. but you don't. because you'll bring them down. because they certainly won't understand you. because they've never felt this way. and then you feel more alone than ever. and you start crying all over again.

So go ahead, jump into the void, and disappear.

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~Revenge-Request Nov 22, 2009, 5:59:35 PM
HEY! You there? ö.ö

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~pleaseviolateme Nov 22, 2009, 11:52:34 PM
not anymore, i was i guess.. for like couple minutes.. then left..

my roommates are annoying the fxcking shit out of me.. im so damn irritable right now and fxcking hate them arggggh usually we get along great but right now im in the worst mood ever :S fxxxxkkkcckkckc >:C

:(

i need to get out of here. :/

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"Black is like the silence of the body after death, the close of life.'' - Vasily Kandinsky
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~Revenge-Request 6 days 21 hours ago
AH, ok then. XD

This sucks... is there something wrong? ó_ò
:hug:
I want you to be happy again! >__<

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~pleaseviolateme 6 days 5 hours ago
Today was an alright day, definitely not as bad as yesterday and I laughed and smiled some... wasn't nearly as pissed off, but I found out that basically all mine and my friend's travel plans for me going to the UK are gone now so it's just... depressing :/ lol... not cool/ :(

I get to go home in two days for Thanksgiving break (it's that holiday with the turkey! lol) XD... so I'm happy to get out of here for sure! (kinda hate it here <__<;;) and I get my new phone on Friday so that's exciting :)! do you have one? :O cos if I get international sms then I could text you! ^________^ :heart:

I miss you :C
<3<3 how are you doing? Did you have a good day? How did you sleep? ^^ :glomp: :hug: :3

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"Black is like the silence of the body after death, the close of life.'' - Vasily Kandinsky
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~Revenge-Request 5 days 20 hours ago
Really not cool... mhh... i can't really help at all. .__.

Yeah, i know... poor tasty turkey. >.<
Is it eally that bad there? Ö_Ö
I'm one of the few, still living ones, who don't own a phone. I never really wanted one, these things are too smart for me. XD

Miss you too! ;.;

I'm fine like always. Had a good day, i think? X3
And i did sleep well, kinda... was too hot in my room. ~.~

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~Dessii Nov 1, 2009, 12:31:01 PM
HI random deviant!! Noice gallery! :wave:

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I'm the son of Rage and Love

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Your back issues make you look hot.
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~pleaseviolateme Nov 1, 2009, 4:36:34 PM
Heyyyaaa. Thanks so much ;D
Hope you're good. xx

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"Black is like the silence of the body after death, the close of life.'' - Vasily Kandinsky
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~Dessii Nov 1, 2009, 6:36:41 PM
^^ Mmyusyus! :iconretardiloveitplz:

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Your back issues make you look hot.
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